Hey You..
(Someone, who feels this)
Our conveyance is same. We relate, have the same words of emotion and are definitely Not Alone.
I didn't start with asking "How are you", because trust me, I also feel the same - 'Lost'.. Lost in continuous waves of thoughts, uncertainties, anxieties, ambiguities, expectations, self doubts, hopelessness, questions that I am unable to find answers of and on top of all, the high tides of memories.
Memories..how often these waves crash at your shore is not even a choice of yours.. you get washed away from present to get dragged into the moments when memories hit you. How terribly you want to go back in time, live again and reconstruct those moments, make each regretted decision correct and expect a better outcome, How badly you wish to remedy all those times that give you a haunting nightmare every now and then, How frequently your heart desires for that one chance which could have made things different.. How tearfully you relish the moments spent of love and laughter urging time to stop there.. But no amend can be done and no past can be traversed..and time keeps on going.. You are left with these memories only..to break, build, churn, hold, shake, secure, hug you in a cold and warm embrace..
You try to pause the time, hide somewhere and run far away. But you don't know the answer, action, place or the path.. Looking at the sunset, witnessing the night arising, seeing the clouds wondering anywhere and then experiencing slowly the stars twinkling and spread across.. this soothes the soul, doesn't it? Because that's like how you feel urself..find urself one among those.. as one wondering cloud or one random star in a crowd of shining lights in the night sky?? Wondering without any answer to 'what's next' and in a crowd without any idea of 'direction'..?? It feels familiar to feel so each passing day..doesn't it ??
Worse is the situation now when a heartfelt laughter is the most and rare privilege in the midst of heartbreaking miseries of losing dreams and dear ones. The strongest of the persons lossened up and surrendered.. The all time smiling face is fighting to hide tears now. Acknowledging the fact 'power, money, name, fame all burns into an ash in no minutes' and accepting it somehow shuts you even further out.. Newsflash, social media, text messages, these all talk about someone's pain, helplessness, irreversible losses, social fights, naked selfishness..And you get pushed farther by consuming negativities all day and night..
However, this battle is not lost yet and being fought with precautions, medications, vaccinations and a lot of hope, patience and positivity. Rhyming the mantra that these days of difficulties too shall pass, world is trying to be stronger..The situation will improve, things will change and society will stand back..This is the ray of faith that binds all hearts together and drives eveyone to look forward to a better tomorrow.
Just exactly the same way, one day, sooner, you will be healed, heard, answered, found, valued, loved and happily "You". You are losing urself on each sunset, on the contrary, you wake up to each sunrise, hugging its warmth, hoping for one step, one day at a time. You wonder with no known path ahead..you feel at sea with past, future and present..and again.. you are not alone..So, let's slow down, and just take the current breath relaxed, just focus on the minute at our best, be hopeful for the next minute, next hour.. Let's not rush for a direction, not contemplate on 'what's next', not torture ourselves for the past.. Let time rule over your scars, let karma do the calculations, let the universal unseen magical power plan for us.. Let's be kind to self, let's come with a happy agreement on what has been lost, let's cherish on what's positive around and be thankful, let hope blossom, let's dare to dream again, let's be gentle and forgiving to self and others, let's be open and ready to welcome the shine that the bright sun has in store for us..after a long stormy night..beacuse we deserve it..to be happy ,whole, peaceful..
